I adopted Nat on April's Fool. What a day, huh? He's a small puppy, not up to two months of age. He's a good companion alright, but he absolutely LOVES barking. And barking. And barking. And also peeing in the house. Those are the two things that drive me crazy right now besides having to wake up early to make him breakfast and play with him, et. cetera, et. cetera, et. cetera... It's quite a huge responsibility alright, especially when I want and need him to grow up healthy and strong. I have to buy expensive dog food too. D: Yay?

A long time away from www.blogger.com is well, causing me to tear my brain apart just to think of something to blog about. All I can think about right now is Form 6, him and Nat. I don't know what else to do. It feels like as if I'm going crazy. I've been having emotional breakdowns yesterday for no reason. I don't know why. I want to know. I NEED to know. I don't wanna go nuts yet. At least not before Andy and Evelyn comes back. Gah. Forget it. I AM really nuts.

Oh! I thought of something! I've been going out with my guy friends (and their girlfriends) lately. Kelvin is still... manipulative. I wonder if he learned that from his psychologist friend? Jason's cool with everything though. And by everything, I mean EVERYTHING. Things I'd rather not say. Andy and Lessie and doing fine too. I think. They seem like a sweet-enough couple. Happy for them.

As usual, my relationship goes up and down, directly proportional to my mood changes. Somehow, I feel responsible for his feelings sometimes. I mean, part of his bad feelings is because of me, if not all. I just don't know what to say. I'm not good at expressing myself. I never was. That's why they don't get me. Even if I tell him my problems and thoughts, he still won't get me. Is my mind so complex? Complicated? Gah. Never mind. I have to grow up and be independent someday, anyway. I can't rely on him too much, or I'll be no more than a burden to him. And I don't want that to ever happen.

I think I'll stop blogging for now. I'm missing Nat again. Bye.