27 July 2012
It's been so long since I last blogged. Well, time for UPDATES!
I thought I had things going my way when I got accepted into IPG, especially when I still living in Kuching - nearer to his house, in fact. I didn't realize that I was getting myself into serious trouble for accepting the offer.
1st problem - My parents driving me crazy. I feel like I have less freedom - besides being able to talk to him late at night without anyone annoying me - compared to when I was in Form 6. They imposed such stupid rules about staying in the hostel and not going ANYWHERE else. Like, wtf?
2nd problem - The FOOD. Ugh. I'm not gonna mention much here. You probably can guess.
3rd problem - The TIOLETS. Eww.
4th problem - Walking to the lecture hall - I prefer it to be called classroom, actually - from the hostel which is like miles away. At least it feels that way when I have to start walking early in the morning with the fear that I might have to stand outside for being late for class.
Well, that's about it for the campus. Wouldn't wanna mention too much about it here.
My relationship is... going up and down again. It's the time of the year when I get so frustrated that I don't wanna talk to anyone. Yeah, mood swings. That's the right way to put it. I have no idea why either. But... I'm grateful. Not for the mood swings, of course, but for the patience in my boyfriend, which I believe, he works on to endure my long-lasting anger and frustration.
My overall mood for today: SAD :'(
I feel like breaking down sometimes. Don't get me mistaken, I'm not saying that I'm going back to my old self, but I just feel so vulnerable sometimes. And I don't know why. I shouldn't be this way. I told myself over and over again that I would be someone else someday. Someone who is mature, independent... But sometimes... I just want someone to talk to. Someone who will not be upset and impatient with me. But even he gets frustrated at me sometimes. So... :'(
Stopping here. Lots of love.
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